After a long, dysfunctional -relationship- with a guy who was my friend and lover but never actually my boyfriend, I finally broke free of it. Only to relapse into missing him and hanging out with him once more -as friends.- We had always been 'drinking buddies' and thus, the night we hung out we proceeded to have a few beers and hang out how we used to--laughing, watching tv, talking on the balcony. It was a seemingly good turn of the times...Stupidly, we ended up sleeping together in a very drunken state..him coming onto me, at first I resisted, but gave in. I ended up getting genital herpes from him that night from oral sex. It was my initial outbreak, as proven by bloodtest (lack of antibodies in blood, but confirmation of virus on skin.) He has never shown signs of it, but it turned out to be type 1 --the cold sore variety. Today, I also broke out with my first ever cold sore and it's HORRIBLE. He refused to get tested, never did. He goes on unphased and I am forever changed.

I reached a point today where I realised that I just don't have the strength to go home anymore. I'm tired of the fighting, anger and loneliness. I'm tired of being the only person who has to carry everything, the finances, the stress and keeping everyone motivated. I also want to be selfish, I also don't want to care how much my actions hurt the people around me, I also want to be the only person that matters to me. But I can't, hey? I have to shoulder the burden again, have to push down everything that I feel, have to act strong, have to have all the answers and have to keep on sacrificing so that others can get exactly what they want. Yes, I'm that sucker, I'm everyone's punching bag, angry at something that happened during the day? Sure! Take it out on me. Decided you don't like you look? Sure! Here's more money you didn't bring in to go and blow. I would love to know what you would do if I didn't come home...

l am a 14 year old girl. I am madly in love with a guy at my school. Somemes I have sexual fantisies about him even though I am a virgin. I know I will never be good enough for him. Is it normal to have fantasies at this age? Please tell me.

I am a young, petite, fit woman. I get endless compliments on my beauty. Point being, I should be proud to be a female. I am married to the man of my dreams. What nobody knows is that inside I feel like a male. I cannot make love to my husband without pretending I am a male. When I look in the mirror I see a beautiful girl but it's like I am looking at someone else. When I realize it is me I am looking at, I almost want to to laugh... or even cry... because inside I am a male. I will never speak of this for fear of losing my precious husband. I will hold this secret that shames me and confuses me in the pit of my soul... maybe forever.

I have two young children who I love to death but i'm married to a misserable person, he knows I love them more than I love him... I try to love him but why... he is so unhappy with himself he is miserable, Is this really it? I could have the world by the balls and I settled for him and only him since I could never be unfaithful. If it weren't for my kids and his family I'd be gone...crying forever on the inside. I hate myself for this

I write erotica and post it online. It makes me feel good to write out my fantasies. One character was based on me, but I didn't tell anyone. The whole world knows the color of my pubic hair, and they're not even aware of it. And guess what? I'm a virgin!

i cant take it anymore i have been seriously considering taking my own life, i have been hoping for a couple months now that hopefully a car will fly around the corner and do it for me so i dont look so week, i try hard i really do, i try to push through everyday with just a scratch but its not working anymore im wearing down my happiness has been stripped from me, my family has replaced me my friends abandoned me, ive been molested i have molested i am hated by the haters and aquantances with the lovers im going no where in life all i do is smoke weed drink and work i am a man whore i have one friends that is close with me that is my girlfriend she knows me more than anyone and hasnt changed her veiw on me we need more people in this world that like to help others and can find out about others past without judging them people change and if they cant they can still try and you could try and help [sheisthemostbeautifulgirlihaveevermet<3] Mr.bloodythorns

I can't stand the woman that I'm with but she is the mother of my children. We were married but divorced but are back together because I want my kids close to me. She is neurotic and ugly. I am not aroused by her at all. I got with her when I was in a very bad place in my life. Now I'm older and wiser, yet I have kids with her and she isn't fit to raise them alone. She presents as a normal, nice loving woman but she is nuts. Also I'm in love with my ex but I can't be with her either....... so I chose my kids over my true happiness and desires. I just hope one day my kids will realize what their Daddy did to keep them safe and well adjusted. ...to ms. X...yes you are a train wreck...get help... to ms. M...I will always love you...........