I'm not as happy as I used to be, and I knew this but I didn't realize the extent of It until today when I got that thing google photos does to put together a slideshow of pictures for u, anyway I saw that and it went from like 2019 to now and I really saw how I used to be so fucking happy and now I really am not at all, it's really like I'm not living life but instead floating through it, I can't feel anything, I'm pretty much waiting for the day to end. That's it. I don't know what to do anymore with anything.