I secretly have a gay crush on one of my best friends. Everyone assumes I am straight. I have had straight relationships in the past (never for very long), and he has had some fairly serious straight relationships in his past. I get mixed signals from him. Sometimes I could swear he is into me, and other times he seems distant. This is starting to consume a large portion of my thoughts on a daily basis. I love him. Should I tell him and risk our friendship? Or should I keep it on the down-low and risk never knowing the truth?