i'm 18 years old, and i've had this secret since i was 9, and since then it's got betteer or worse. none of my friends or family know and that's a really good thing because i do not want them to know but. i'm a boy and i like to wear women's clothes like, knickers, tights, leggings, bras, stuff like that.

I want to confess my sexually immorality for my whole life from having premarital sex to being unfaithful. I want to confess my dishonesty and my betrayal to my loved one around me. I want to be washed of my sins so I can have eternal life with God the father of almighty in heaven. I know him as my savoir and I feel as I have forsaken him.

I'm not very sure what my sexuality is. I am a girl, but I was fascinated by the thoughts of naked girls when I was in second grade. I used to go online and watch pictures and videos of them in secret. Actually, even now I still do. My mom did find out, twice. I think I stopped watching porn after the second scolding, but I continued to fantasize about it. My day dreams during my Elementary years included hot girls servicing me. Many times I thought myself as a guy during these dreams. This sort of led to my wanting to become a guy. I found cross dressing very thrilling and exciting. But I don't think much of my transgender issues as before. I still think about it, though. I've kind of replaced it with yaoi. I don't know why I'm into gay sex now, but I've been addicted to it from the beginning of middle school. Ok, that made me think like I'm kind of some sex maniac. Which is not good. Anyway, I now watch normal and gay porn basically. They both turn me on. Am I bisexual? Maybe.

I'm gay and i'm in love with my straight friend. He is fully aware of my sexuality and of course has no problem with it. He's a great friend but most definitely does not feel the same way I do about him. I decided not tell him for fear of ruing our friendship and try to ignore my feelings. But it's getting harder every time I see him. And I feel so terrible at the same time for lying to him. Whenever we share a friendly but intimate gesture, like a hug or something, I almost feel like I'm taking advantage of him. I'm starting therefore to ignore him and make him think i no longer want to be his friend. If only he knew how broken my heart is as a result.

I knowingly ate meat on the first Friday of Lent. I am catholic...but I hate fish.

I want to have that sense of security of knowing- yes, I can afford that- physically, mentally AND emotionally. I want the feeling of 'yes, I can handle that' for whatever comes my way. I want the feeling of 'Let's go explore!' I want the ability to just go out and look at what I need or feel I need to get things done. I want that feeling- the lack of anxiety 'we can afford it' feeling with no - woops, better watch my money ccuz I can only spend so far... I want the indecision of not knowing which vacation we want to go on. That's what I want. I want to be wealthy. I want to have money. I want us to make good money together Rich- but I also want to make good money BY MYSELF.

I let my friend take my virginity thinking it was a one night stand. He'll be happy and he'll leave me alone (I was kind of upset about this because he was a good friend) and I'll live life like normal. I was happy when he kept talking to me, but now I am in love with my lover.

I know this boy. He's not handsome or buff but he's real, he likes the same things I do, he plays the saxophone, and he's so nice to talk to. And I want him more than I've wanted anyone else.