I have never had sex with a woman nor the desire but I know my most men appreciate it so last week when we were at a club w/my best friend I got really close to her and danced verysuggestedly, touching and feeling each other. He was watching us dance from the bar in awe. We slept at her house in the bedroom next to hers and the sex was soooo good I know she heard it.

My life is becoming composed of lies. I have an ex who still lives with me that yells at me, uses me, treats me like shit and yet my parents dont know because I hide it. I love my boyfriend, and I still have to break up with the boyfriend before him. I try so hard to help people, and they think so highly of me, yet I am the one that usually ends up messing their lives up. Im starting to drink a lot, I want to so badly make something of myself but cant because all I can think of is how badly Ive f*cked up and cant let anyone know. I love my mother so much, and I finally found the perfect guy who treats me right, but Im tangled up in a web of lies with everyone else just to avoid confrontations. I couldnt take it anymore, and I started cutting myself. I feel like I want to kill sometimes just because almost everyone I meet treats me like shit. I feel like I cant take it anymore, but I have nowhere else left to retreat to. I love my bf and mother dearly, but other than that Im torn up.

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I have a feeling that psychologically, theres something very wrong with me. Ive always been a good kid, had good grades, never got in trouble. I got out of high school (i got engaged in high school), I started to become very different. Started to freak from my fiance (now ex) getting mad at me and yelling at me on a daily basis, toyed with the idea of not wanting to be around anymore, i drink a lot now, lie all the time to make sure things work out and that problems dont arise from certain scenarios, I feel like everything wrong is my fault. My ex still lives with me and it still kinda messes with my head but i cant kick him out. I literally have gotten to the point of wanting to kill people. I had cut myself to get rid of the pain, and anytime that i cant handle it anymore i have to do something self destructive to get rid of whats wrong. I feel like Im stuck in my head and I dont want to tell people my problems and stick them with whats wrong. They have enough going on without that too.

I am glad I left him, but I will always be ashamed of the whole thing.I lost my virginity to a man who treated me like trash. He used me. I feel used and humiliated.I should have walked away on time but i didn`t.Now i have to live with it for the rest of my life. I should have save myself for a man who would love me enough to marry me.I don`t want this to happen to anyone.Girls, be careful.

i really don't know what the big deal is! i live somewhere where the population is predominantly black, yes i've been attracted to local boys who are dark-skinned, but the truth is i find myself wanting the guys with the fairest skin the most. White guys are really attractive to me too i realized. My friends know this and are always bringing it up and joking about it. I joke too and shrug it off but it really makes me angry that they're so close-minded. I think it's silly to make such a big deal about it. Furthermore, some people have even joked that i'll stay single forever because i'll never find a white guy who wants more than just sex from me. please tell me what u make of this...

I cant stand her, i never have been able to i have stuck myself with someone who is fat as hell and annoying and has made my financial situation worse.Why on earth have i stayed with her?

I'm in love with my straight best friend...

Today I saw my ex. He tried to force himself on me and I left. I got a little drunk and apparently have taken up smoking. My parents don't seem to notice either, or the dirty big cut on my wrist/\hand. I think I've discovered that I'm a little gay too. What an odd week.

I'm not in love with my wife any more. She blames me for everything, tells me what I am thinking and then gets mad at me for it. I think she may have Borderline Personality Disorder. I can't leave because we have a child together but I can't stay because it is a very unhappy home.