I thought I was getting over him, I got a new boyfriend who told me he loves me and we slept together. We've only been together two weeks by now and he's told me he likes someone else. He's happy with me, but he's deciding between me and her. So, that's it. The only people I've ever trusted and loved have all lied to me. The suicidal thoughts hit me last night. I want to see my doctor, because the stress and OCD haven't been sorted yet and I can't handle things as they are. I wish something tragic would happen. I don't want to be this any more.

I have a huge crush on a 50 year old man and am 26 is this bad? I think he feels the same way as me!!!

well...its been a while since i did this..but ive reached the edge... i recently just got out of foster care...i know live with my mom remind you i am 16 years old... anyway..last night i went to a "party" if thats what yu wanna call it... just a couple of people i know and my best friend... i ended up drinking SOO much its not even funny...i got SO drunk..i ended up being raped but my ex boyfriends uncle...next after words..i was all over my ex james...witch i thought we were going to get back together and i think we still are...i was so drunk that my mom came and got me..i went back to my best friends house..well her brother...who is like my brother(love him to death..i think i like him)he stormed out of the house and came right back in to help me...i was falling and stumpling..her mom was helping me..i know know they are looking fro him..i dont know what i should do...im afraid for anyone to get in trouble..and im afraid that i will ending up having to go back into foster care

I never thought my feelings of worthlessness and paranoia would last this long. I'm trying to find a therapist who can evaluate me for depression and anxiety disorders ... And that's really scary. Just because I'm so afraid of being dependant on medication to be -normal.- I don't feel supported by my friends ... I keep convincing myself they're just being nice to be because they feel sorry for me. They tell me they care about me but when I try to talk to them they're either indifferent or just change the subject. I keep thinking that maybe my feelings of worthlessness aren't because of a disorder ... maybe I'm just honest with myself and people just don't like me... But it's even scarier to me to think that a pill might be the only thing that can fix those feelings. Why is that so terrifying to me? Shouldn't I want to be happy?

My dear lover,I know you live at home with your wife.I know you`re not gonna divorce her as you say, but even if you do, I don`t care.I know you`re lying to me all the time.I know you`re gonna cheat on me, you do that to your wife, why wouldn`t you do it to me.You don`t know me at all, but if you keep playing your game, you`re gonna see who I am and you don`t think you`re gonna like it.I wish you would stay with your wife,because after all,I don`t want you to end up alone and miserable.I don`t love you.I like to hang out with you, but that`s all.You think I am fragile, but I know your game.You told me so many lies and that shows that you don`t care about me, you only love yourself.I will never marry you if you get divorced.I am going to leave you when I decide it`s time to move on.I am not going to spend the rest of my life with miserable you.You think you`re smart,but you are disgusting.I am disgusting too,but not quite as much.I am going to dump you and never look back.

I have this persistent desire to become the richest person in the world. I don't even want this desire removed from me. I shudder at the thought of being just like everyone else. I look down upon the idea of being content with basic financial means. I am somewhat grateful for what I have now, but not grateful enough. I want the entire world to be my Monopoly board. This desire shows no signs of waning.

Ever since I lost 20 pounds, my confidence has soared, even though my boyfriend dumped me last year. And I can't keep my secrets any longer, it's killing me. I slept with a -superior- to avoid downsizing when a new company bought out the company where I work, and I slept with the boyfriend of one of my closest friend's from college. But for the first time in a long time, I feel SOOOO sexy!

I finally made love to my best friends wife! I have lusted for this woman for many years, mostly because of her endless flirting. The thing is she is the sexiest, most sensual woman I have ever met, she is truly irresistable. Anyway, years ago when they were just dating I had caught her kissing someone else and even got pictures from my phone. I always thought about using this to my advantage but was too nervous. Recently her husband was out of town on business so I decided it was now or never. My plan was to make a move on her before I told her about the pictures that way I wouldn't have to use them. I went to her house with a big bottle of wine, we started drinking but it was kind of awkward because it was just odd for me to stop by to drink wine. After awhile things loosened up a bit and I went for it.I went over to her and told her how amazing she looked and that I could no longer resist her. We then had the most intense kiss ever. We made very passionate love thruout the night.