its so hard for me to let go of someone with whom ive shared so much with and try to avoid letting other people make me pissed off and annoyed. how do i start living healthy and back on track? My mind is trash. i need it back.

So thing is... i am surrounded by people who used to totally make fun of me for going out, clubbing all the time, smoking, drinking 24/7 and shit like that. and i had to go through it because i didn't care what they thought of me. i had my closest friends write next to me all the way. now this year i calmed down, started doing things moderately, not going crazy, and now the same people who made such a big deal out of it have started doing the same thing except not as bad as what i did and they consider it the best thing in the whole universe and that they're so frikking cool. and yes it pisses me off because i just have to take things and make them look worst. so please tell me how to ignore all these hypocrits and live my own life without getting all crazy about how stupid they are. =(

Just the other day i was opening my big mouth to keep someone from commiting suicide and here i am ...i have been schizophrenic for 4 years now, i hear voices telling me i was killed in a previous life by my mother. If i am depressed it is about the life i never had....but turns out i did just like my mother i had abortions........i just don't know what to do anymore the guy i am in love in is single but lives miles away and will never fall for an ugly girl like me i gained so much weight... i have a son and the voices i hear tell me he is not mine people say ignore the voices theyare lying to you but it is not easy when something is said over and over again and when i hear those voices come from somewhere...

you were my first love back in high school and now that we are together again, you are my love again. yet we are not free to be together -- you just got married and i have been married for years now. when you tried to pursuade me to see you, i didn't think you stood a chance. then i slowly let my guard down and i fell in love with you again. i am so torn up inside. we got together the week before you got married and i was so full of guilt and shame. i hate that you married her just because you two were dumb enough to get pregnant. i hate that i'm married to the person i once thought was my soul mate and realize he's not. you are my everything, i've never felt so in love and so loved. you are everything i thought a soul mate should be. you show me love in ways i've never experienced. and yet now you got caught by your neighbor and i feel compelled to say good-bye before our spouses find out and our families are ruined. i am crushed.

I started having an affair with a friend from work. We're both married. I was lonely, sad and horny. I'm mortified to say that now that I've seen his cock, I have no interest in having any kind of sex with him. Its this short thin broom pole with a small golf ball on the end. Euw. It was hard not to laugh the first time I saw it. I was thinking 'oh, I'm risking all this for *THIS*?!? No thanks pal.'

he is my dream. he fills my thoughts, and i lie awake in bed wishing he were there. his messages get me through the day, and my heart jumps when i see his name in my inbox. i am married, but he is not my husband. we do not cross paths often because we don't trust ourselves, and with good reason. what we share is bigger than who we are. i think of stealing just one kiss but know it wouldnt stop there so i leave that to my dreams. i love him enough to leave him alone and just be friends. I wonder if the pain of not being with him is worse than the pain I'd cause by allowing myself to be joyously wrapped up in his arms, even for the briefest moment. I have to know how that feels, and I don't think I can fight it much longer. There is no forgiveness when there is no repentance. I can't make myself be sorry for what I feel, nor what I'd do given the chance. i love him with every ounce of my being.

This is a sad story. I'm 35 now. Since the age of 18 I am in love with a girl who is 4 years youger than me. She was 14 then, she is 31 now. At 18 I started to date with her older sister, who is my age. I love and respect and enjoy my marriage, we have good life and three wonderful kids, but what can I do... For all these years I was and still am in love with her sister. I never tried to approach her for the fear of rejection that might have been natural first due to the age difference at the time (18 & 14), and now due to the fact that I'm married to her sister. Even if she was interested in me (and I don't know whether she is or was at all) she he couldn't ruin her sister's life for her own benefit. Next year my sister in law is getting married. I would say it is a bit late for her at her age of 31 (she is very good looking), and when I'm happy for her, I feel sad - it means that she's gone for me forever.

She doesn't trust. She isn't realistic with anything...money, career, the demands she puts on me. She has no goals other than marriage to me, which I don't want. She's accused me of sleeping with her daughter, just because we get along. She has a terrible double standard about disciplining her youngest son. She has no trouble complaining about me not taking her places and spending a lot of money on her, even though I am now living check to check and have put off all of the things that I wanted to buy for myself or things I wanted to pay off. She's let herself go physically, and really doesn't want to do anything about it, but complains about it all the time. She's not the person I thought she could be,not because I was wrong in my estimation of her, but because she doesn't want to make the effort to improve her life or herself at all. I want to separate from her, but can't because she just moved in and has nothing of her own anymore. I feel trapped.