I been feeling really bad about myself lately. I cheated on my boyfrind of 4 years with my best friend's boyfriend. its happend a few times now. its started out on new years we were really drunk and somehow we ended up making out. but since then has just gotten worse. we cant be left alone together anymore other wise we end up having sex. i feel so guilty about it but then i find myself wanting more. at the same time i dont want my friend going out with a cheater but i'm the one he's cheating with. not to mention i have a boyfriendwho i love with all my heart and want to spend the rest of my life with but i lust for my best friends boyfriend.

i slept with my best friends boyfriend while she was at work. this is the third time ive dont this now. i do have a boyfriend ive been dating for 4 years. i do love my boyfriend. i feel horrible.

It's getting worse. The being a secret thing still gets me down, Also it turns out since I've been with him, I've been increasingly insecure. I'd do anything to be with him, but.. for real. Surely if he wanted it too, he'd have told people about me though, wouldn't he? I don't wanna leave him for bad reasons but alot of my friends are trying to convince me to get over him and try things with my ex (also my best friend) just because it wouldn't have so many problems. I dunno. My self esteem's really low lately, I don't think I could even trust that either of them could love me. I wish I was older, that the stuff with his ex hadn't happened and we lived closer. It's weirdly lonely. He should be here Friday though finally, if he doesn't bail.

I cheated on my husband of 6 years last year. It has been 8 months since I talked to the other guy, but I still think about him sometimes. I love my husband and I want to be happy with him, so I would never do it again. I was unhappy at the time and contemplating divorce, and my husband appeared casual about affairs, so I did it. I regret it immensely, but wonder if that had never happened if we would have ended up divorced. Now we see a counselor and things seem better. Sometimes I think about what I did and the guilt is overwhelming. Does the guilt ever go away, does the cheated-on spouse ever not feel betrayed? I just want to be happy, but sometimes what happened last year gets the better of me and I just can't get over the guilt.

He still hasn't told his parents. He's 24 almost & I'm only 16. That's legal. We've been together 10+ months, it wasn't for 9 of those, but it is now. My parents flipped out when I told them, but I had to. -He lives with his mom and brother Apparently his brother has strong views on age-gaps.. but goes abroad in summer and my boyfriend plans to tell his mom then. He makes it sound reasonable, but it drives me crazy. Alot of me thinks he'll find an excuse not to. It's not just that. It's an LDR, see him a few days a month, mom lets him stay over now. (he's "at a friends") I can only be there for a few hours. There's other stuff; I don't like the sex too. He's my first (I wouldn't if I didn't love him - I'm not that sort of person) but sth doesn't feel right. He can't support much financially so things won't get easier. The worst part is, his ex was also younger so the police were involved, nothing came of it though. I love him but it's hard being a secret.

i hate my life i no it sounds stupid but i really do. i wish with all my heart i was sum1 else i watch films over and over and over again i cant stop myself i need 2 i wish that was who i was it hurts so much i never thought anything could hurt like this god somtimes i wish i was dead i really i think about ending my life but i cant go through with it. im so pathetic. why does hurt so much i want my fairytale. please im begging u can u help me?

I have been feeling really bad lately and I am angry at myself , because i know how pathetic this sounds.I cannot belive i care about this ,but i do, very much.It is guy trouble.He seems to be losing interest in me and i can`t stand it, i am furious.He had been sending me e-mails for some time and he hasn`t sent me one in more than a week.And the last one was the personality match test from the internet,the dumbest one he could find.He was acting weird the day after,not as friendly and flirty as usual. Maybe he`s had a bad day,but it seems he thinks he knows me, but- no honey,you don`t.And my friend also made him think i am crazy about him, I am certainly not, but i don`t want him or anybody to make a fool out of me.I will see him tomorrow and i intend to find out what`s going on.I also intend to do some detective work, he could be seeing one of my friends,they are all acting weird...and if it is so they will both regret this.

i love him. i truly and honestly do. he is all i ever think about. it's not healthy for me to be so consumed with him. i want to let him go. i don't think i make him happy. i think he finds me unattractive, disgusting, gross and incompatible. i want to spend the rest of my life with him, but i don't know if he has other plans. i've checked his email and his myspace and wondered why he tells people one thing and tells me another. i know more and more of his secrets. and i don't know if I want to be with him anymore.