i love my girlfriend with all my heart, but the last week or so, i've been paying a female friend to give me oral sex. My girlfriend and I have already had sex, and she is great at it, but when we dont get a chance to see eachother, i want to be sucked so bad, and i feel guilty, but i cant stop. i think i'm a sex addict.

I am in a relationship with a great guy, but I can't trust his motives. I have been hurt before, and I can't help obsessing over little, seemingly insignificant, things that he does that hurt me. I don't want to suffocate him... he is truely the nicest guy I have ever known, but I don't know how to tell him that I feel this way, or even if I should.

I recently started dating someone new. I waited as long as I could for you to come around and you never did. I know you can't give me what I need and that you will never grow up. You are fun in bed but thats about it. I will always care for you but I need a REAL man now. I will miss the fun and excitement we had in bed but I seriously need to move on and I am trying my best to forget about you and what I wish we could have had.

i used to have a serious drinking problem which stems from my self destructive personality. when you don't eat for days on end your body tries to tell you somethings wrong by making you cough which turns into retching when you eventually do vomit nothing comes up and it hurts like hell. my wake up call came when i took the DT's in the liquor store, trying to stop your hands shaking as you approach the counter is hard and embarrassing. i told my girlfriend from day one that i liked to drink, she stood by me and helped me get my life in shape again, everybody else in my life shut the door on me. i used to have a job that i loved, but one person let me know just how sub-human i was for the work i did(general labourer) for a large distribution company. in the pissing rain or snow I'd be stacking pallets or stacking 2 tonne cages of rubbish with the forklift (takes skill and experience) ain't easy in the winter. i never complained when i had a cold or sore throat.

as i was saying i never once complained when i had a sore throat or a cold or flu, i always had a smile and time for a chat for my workmates. but this one trampy bitch took an instant dislike to me she thought her 3 gcse's were more prevelant than my 15 years experience. i have scars from the top of my head to my shin bone from labouring, i have a 7 inch scar on my left arm from the work I've done. and everyone is a badge of honour. this little hitlerette told my boss i wasn't doing the job the right way! when i found out what she had done i laughed in her face, even with her side kick arse lick beside her(who was bigger than me) they both shat themselves. then my boss started to get complaints from other departments about my work. 7 months of this crap i decided screw it! i dont care anymore thats when i hit the drink big time. so then i crawled into a bottle and didn't poke my head out for nearly a year. quit work and lived of my life savings.

so for nearly a year i drank myself to a stupor, every step of the way my girlfriend was there. with every sip of drink i took i was secretly cursing that bitches name. AMW I'll get you back no worries!. but when i looked at my girlfriend i knew she was worth a billion AMW's. so i let revenge and the bottle go. i'm in a new job now and the people i work with are all 100 percent genuine even with their faults which i like as they have no hidden agenda. i see a lot of people here are hurting themselves because of bullying, cutting and starving themselves. my advice is stop it now! don't hurt yourself if the bullys knew that they'd get a even bigger kick from it. take it from me it helps no-one i have no idea how strong i am and i was bullied out of a job by a 5'5 skinny dying bitch. bullying even happens in the workplace to full grown men and there is no shame in admitting it. make the bullys hurt by being happy. I'm very happy and sober. AMW can go to hell! peace!

I recently met a guy at school. He doesn't go there, he was there as part of his job for one day. We started talking there, then on msn and the phone. He's gonna make it big one day and will be on the radio next month. The next day we went out. Nothing happened, we just made out in his car. He's sooo sweet and so sexy! lol. Anyways, two days later I went to his house and we had sex. I feel kinda bad cuz I did it more because he'd be famous, than because I liked him. After I left, I didn't think we'd talk again and thought the feeling was mutual. But he text messaged me the next morning with the opposite. He likes me and I like him. But I'm in love with someone else. Too bad... Would be an awesome life. And he's just an amazing guy. Rare one. Wish I wasn't in love already cuz I know I could easily fall for this guy...

There are all these things going wrong in my life. Like I had this stepdad that shot himslef and I feel like it's my fault. I don't know why, and now whenever I look somewhere, all i see is him. And everything that I want to happen goes all wrong. This makes me so mad! I can't take it anymore. I jsut feel like everything is my fault. All the suicides. Like I somehow hurt everybody I've known in some way. then they go and kill thereselves and I feel likes it's my fault. Maybe is was jsut a sentane, or just a word. It could also have been this huge paragraph too. just when they go and fuck up there lives i feel like it was my fault becouase of what I said. I jsut do't know what to do. and I feel like everybody isn't really my friend and is just faking it. I feel like I have no friends. Except for one boy that I'm in love with but I don't think he likes me that way. I just don't know what to do anymore. I feel dead inside and I feel like I will be dead soon if I don't get any help soon...

My boyfriend and I have been engaging in group sex on a regular basis. It started out as fun, but now, he doesn't want to have one on one sex at all anymore. I think it's time to move on.

It's my second day at my new job and while training at my boss's desk, i clicked on "desktop" to open and attach a file to an e-mail and BAM!! TONS of porn came up. Naked girls with their legs spread......disgusting....everything. I was SOOOOO shocked I kinda just sat there and he quickly grabbed the mouse out of my hand and closed it and replied with a," Uh oh, I have bad things on my computer". HE KNEW he was sooooo busted and I could tell that he was totally embarassed. I was so grossed out, especially when I saw all the pictures of his kids and wife around his office. I am very old fashioned, and honestly, the fact that he feels the need to look at other women tells me that his wife isn't enough for him. Such a shame that he has to visually CHEAT ON a woman who loves him so much. So, BOSS+PORN+IN HIS OFFICE+ my hand on the mouse that he uses to view this shit=ALMOST BARFING, and me needing to RUN TO THE BATHROOM AND WASH MY HANDS! Awkward, I think i'm going to have to quit.