After it was made sadly obvious that the guy I had a crush on was not interested in me I started really thinking about things. Every time I've had feelings for someone they've never been returned. I guess I don't really believe in love anymore. I still believe in compatibility and affection but I don't think I believe in the typical concept of "love." I know I'm too young to expect to understand everything about this ... but at the same time I feel pathetic that I've gone 18 years without sharing mutual feelings with someone. I've never had anyone I could really talk to. I'm so tired of everyone gushing to me about their happy relationships. Can't they be considerate to us lonely people?

I am a male and im 18. When I was 15 I cut my arm in frustration. I wanted attention from my parents. I wore long sleeves and they never found out. WHen I was 17, again I cut my arms. This time for longer and a lot. I bled a lot. The scars wont go away. I felt guilty. I told people closest to me and scared them away. I was seeing a therapist, yet I never told her even though she cant tell anyone my secrets. I feel guilty. Its self pitty and im sick by it. I havnt done it since.

I used to smoke marijuana but stopped. I overdid it. I became a slug. I stopped and I dont drink or anything bu tnow im addicted to perscription drugs. I take xanax. i find ways to get it and come up with reasons tell my psychologist to get it.

I gather so much energy, then I blow it by saying the wrong thing. He does not want me to do stupid things.

So i havnt really been on here in a while, but too much exploded in my life! My mom has been going to cardiology appointments and well, shes really sick.She works herself to the bone and than gets worse!i get why,i mean i work just as much as she does,we actually work in the same place. But she shouldnt be doing this to herself!I dont know how long shes gunno be around for and well,i dont want her leaving any sooner than she has to.We get in fights with eachother,or more like,she screams and i just try to calm her down.But i dunno,i know shes stressed.It doesnt help that so am i.I feel so caught in everything thats happening around me.Moms dieing,dads drinking,step dads a pure ass,step moms immature,ect. than there me,every1 is telling me everything and i ignore whats wrong.the other day i just crashed,i couldnt ignore it anymore.I totally feel myself slipping,but i have no choice but to stay strong for my family and hold shit together.This is only half of whats happening,im confused:S

I don't know if I really love my son's father. I tell everyone we keep breaking up because he cheats on me and pushes me away, but I freak if we start talking about marriage too. He just doesn't make me want to be with him forever. But I would die if he didn't love me. I think I want my ex back. We haven't been together in nine years, but we are still friends and I think he might have been my true love. I just always thought I would find someone else... maybe he was really it.

i will have been with my man now for two years coming this monday.the problem is i dont know what he wants from us. what really bugs me is i only see him on weekends and also i have not met his parents or his kids and we have been together for 2 years. does anyone see a problem or is it just me.im thinking should i look else wheres or does this guy really want me. man i just dont understand man.

I am very lonely, my husband works nights and pays no attention to me. Much more of this and I will end up cheating, I feel my self looking already..................