I love you mom, I'm sorry. I miss you.

A former classmate passed away last month. We only talked once or twice but I have been getting dreams, about his mom, his wake that I could not attend because of covid, and today I woke up after dreaming about him, alive. In that dream he was stressing about online classes like what university students do on their last semester. I thought, his death was a dream, I thought and believed that in that dream, he was still alive. I guess you can miss people that is not really close to you. But what I regret the most is that I did not talk to him enough to get to know him. I guess I really wanted to be his friend. Rest in Peace, D. it's been a month. I wonder if I will still remember you for the next few months, for the next few years. I hate this feeling of loss. Who were you to me before this life? Why does it hurts very much?

Every single day I think about death, I think of ways to kill and hide bodies. I don't specifically hate anyone but all I want to do is watch their life drain from their eyes. I'm not sure when and why I started thinking like this but if someone could help me stop thinking like this it would help a bunch.

I can't stop getting severely triggered by my former love interest. We just reconnected and I'm fine with him being in my life and following me on socials... I've also finally forgiven him for the Hell he put me through last year. The resentment is gone--! But the hostility and anxiety won't go away. And idk what to do. I don't want to react with an almost instantaneous panic attack just from seeing his posts or picture. I got so triggered last weekend, I spiraled into a fullblown mental breakdown. Shut my phone off for a week. I told myself I'd go back online today. I'm worried I'll freak out again. I don't know how to make this stop. CBT and calming techniques don't work. It's like a part of me is permanently wounded by what he did, and is reacting with fear. I know exposure therapy works and I can rewire my brain, but... it's a very long and difficult process, and-- I'm not sure I have the strength for that. :( Just Neurodivergent Adult Problems™ lol.

I had sex with my room mate last night and his girlfriend was upstairs sleeping . I dont know how it got started but I wish it would happen again

I am a happily married women. My husband and I have become really good friends with another married couple. The wife and I have made out the last two times we’ve been drunk together. My husband knows I kind of have a sexual attraction to women. I had made out with a few other girls while we were dating before and he is fine with it. And it’s definitely not about anything other than the physical. After the first time the wife blamed it on how hammered we were (which is true) and made jokes about us and how we shouldn’t. But that time and then definitely the second time she was definitely the initiator and seemed super into it. I don’t want to do anything with the husband and he’s a nice guy and has never acted that way towards me. We’re hanging out again this weekend and I have a feeling it could happen again but I don’t know what to do since she seems not for it when she’s sober?

Ok this is the deal. I'm 65 and my girlfriend is 32. I'm very.muchn8n lovebwith this person. Shes a taurus and im.a capricorn. We fit together good. It's just so uncanny how we are perfect for each other. Shes has a heart of gold and when I'm with her in public I feel like the happiest man on the face of the earth. Cause shes absolutely a sight to see. Theres one big problem. It's like the biggest object in the room. Is she in love with me or in love with my money. Now we have discussed this numerous times and she reassures me not to worry. But I don't know. Her actions say otherwise. Shes constantly asking for money, and believe I have given her a bank full. Shes a computer software tech. And when I give her money I dont hearvanythingbfrom her for a week. It's always a week. Anybody have anybadvice?

if i see another hetero i will cry