the only reason im still living is my cat and maybe one of my teachers. my cat is getting old and i dont know what ill do after she dies.

I’ve been with my boyfriend for about half a year and I’ve only seen him physically five times in person. And the worst thing about the situation is that I’m too desperate to let him go because I feel like I won’t find anyone else and I’m too scared to do it. I also cheated and slept with someone else. I don’t feel bad about it I just wish I wasn’t so scared to say how I feel. Ive been so depressed because I have no one to seek comfort in and it’s killing me.

My dreams keep coming true and everytime it happens i get filled with a sense of dread and desperation, but idk how to avoid it. they've gotten worse since the pandemic and ik it's silly to think that i can see into the future, but i can't deny what keeps happening. it's a terrible feeling to dream of your friends and family getting hurt then having to wonder whether that's the dream that will come true.. all of my dreams have been nightmares lately and it's exhausting. i dreamt of my aunt's hospital room three months ago. ik it was her room specifically because it had her favorite dessert and jacket in it. three months later she's diagnosed with cancer and is in recovery. she's doing well, but whenever i think about it i get filled with anxiety and worry. i just wish i could get it off my mind.

So im a straight female with a crazy somewhat normal fetish. Its a neck fetish but its not really normal I dont get a sexual thrill from it like most of neck fetish that people get I just like it and I hate that its so hard to find other females that are into it and would like to try it and talk about it with me. I would just like to find a female thats open minded and non judgemental to give it a try and chat about, and honestly if they have some weird thing that they like and would like to talk about it Im up for that too. So if there is any female here thats up for that let me know.

I think I might be falling for my online friend and I’m very concerned. We met in a game and traded discord info so we can communicate when we can play etc. we get along really well and he makes me laugh a lot. I have online friends of all ages mind you. The problem I have is that our age gap is huge. They are 14 and I’m 30. Please understand that I don’t sexualize children nor do I prey on kids. I’m so confused why I feel like this and I just want advice😭 he honestly makes me happy... and I don’t wanna ruin our friendship if I tell him how I feel. We have a transparent friendship. I honestly have so much self hate because of this.

My brother abused me since we were kids. Every day I wish he would drop dead.

I did my first two semesters of online college and failed every class and lied about it because I don't know how to be honest with my parents. I'm having lots of suicidal thoughts even though I want to keep living because I don't know how to deal with this and I don't want to deal with the consequences. I have well over a full gram of Methylphenidate, plenty enough to kill me. I want to live on because there's so much more I still want to do but holy shit its so hard to live with the anxiety of wondering when everything is going to finally catch up with me and fall apart. F me. I haven't even been completely honest with my boyfriend about it but I know I cant KMS because it would crush him and I cant do that to him, I love him too much. Anyway if you're reading this I hope you're doing better than me

i'm struggling.... ive never been abused or diagnosed with anything, but i feel like im not normal. im addicted to p*rn and i keep telling myself i'll stop watching it and i don't. i get mood swings at any time. one minute i'll be laughing and the next i'm shaking with anger. i read a book about the columbine shooting and i related to dylan klebold. i don't want to be like him but i'm scared that i could be. life seems so meaningless. doing things like school or making friends seem meaningless. i feel like i don't have a purpose. i'm supposed to be a christian, but i feel like i'm faking it. i don't wanna live anymore but i'm scared to die.