i hate men so much. the way they treat us is so disgusting and im so tired of it, it makes me not want to live anymore. we're just sexualised or bullied if we're not attractive enough. our whole being is determined by what we can provide to men. im so tired of it. we're shamed for being too sexual and shamed for not being sexual enough. we can shout about feminism for years and nothing but a man comes along and repeats us and is instantly respected and heard. we're bitchy and annoying if we speak up, we need to be obedient and silent, petite and hairless like a child. we're still not respected today and im sick of people telling us to shut up.

i think about dying to help me sleep at night, it's always been comforting to me that i could end it and get out of any situation in my life that is too hard to cope with.

i have a boyfriend that i love but i think i want a relationship with a girl more than anything. im bi but as i get older i like men less and less and i think i cant fully be happy in a relationship with one. we've been together 9 months now but i cant help but have that in the back of my mind. ive repressed the part of me that likes women bc my mother is homophobic.