I have issues with feeling. I get crushes too easily. But when I get in a relationship I actually like and am happy to be in. Everything changes. I grow tired of a relationship fast. And am quick to leave. Which I know isn’t fair. I wish I wasn’t like this. I just wanna be happy with someone. But I’m just never satisfied. Why can’t I be happy? Sometimes I wonder if I’m a lesbian. Which- I’m Pansexual. I think I am. I get feelings for everyone if I like. I don’t know what to do or where to go to seek help about these feelings.

I'm a guy in his mid 50s. i do my best to support all who ask. I'm no saint though. I lost my mom at 15. My dad in 2012. They married in 69 around 7 months before i was born. I figured it out. I asked. I was told -your mom had trouble counting.-. Rhythm method of birth control. Mom always told me -I don't have to like you, but I have to love you.-. Half sister always called me the little bastard. father was always in the loop but not interested in family. We had a fist fight when I was in my 20's after he told me my mom never had sex with him in the later years. She mutilated from cancer. Her girl parts were removed. No breasts. hysterectomy. Any parts left were unusable I assume. While I tried to care for her he left swingers magazines with ads circled on the toilet tank. I got tired of cleaning her waste and shoved her in the shower. She knew she was dying and I chose to watch cartoons in the morning instead of spending time with her.

Second part of cancer mom. I walked in on her after school and she was so drugged up on pain meds that I actually touched her eye without her blinking. Dad did little to help as he wanted her gone. He was a full diabetic. I pulled him out of insulin shock often from a little kid with sugar cubes, mint lifesavers or pepsi. Mom died in OKC hospital. I remember sitting in a window looking outward and hearing the screams while not being allowed to see. Later that evening around 1 the call came. I was crying but actually not sad. over. 15 years old and around 21 people could have taken me in. father was unfit. Why did they not to it? I was such a horrible bastard they all knew I would be too harmful to their families. Truth. Some people born to those who didn't want them in the first place are just born evil. Me. Now I have a son who is out of college and doing well. I try my best to support him although I am a little confused how to do it effectively. Cancer mom part on the way.

Cancer mom part 3. I have a family and try my best. It does seem things circle around though. My wife has bad chemical dependence issues. I do as well but functional. I guess from seeing how its done from an early age. My son is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I try to tell him often, not because it's bs but actually the truth. He graduated College with high honors. Why am I here. I had a dog named Oscar. He was my best friend. He was around 4 in January 2023 and I had to decide to put him down in January from a back injury that paralyzed his back end. My son is off on his own adventure and I'm here trying to go on with my life and this little dog dying obliterated me. I work in industry and had a less than unhappy life from people who really would be happier if I wasn't hatched and I lose it over a dog. Qscar. I'm sprry I had to put you down. I didn't think you would survive the surgery as you were so active and would have harmed yourself. You were my only friend.

I feel gross now but this is probably my future anyways. As a kid I was overexposed to the internet. Free range to whatever. My neighbor asked if I wanted to watch porn, I said yes and I don’t know why. I was seven. I am now 13 and soon I’ll be 14. I told myself under 6 months ago I would never make it past 13, that I would never get a job or graduate. I thought I would kill myself. Since 7 I’ve coped sexually and at 12 I was posting my body online, perfectly lying about who I was, convincing people I was 19. I was living a double life. A life built off of lies, but the attention was beautiful. I never got it in real life so being faceless and just a body gave attention cause of genetics or something. I’m hypersexual. I was transgender but I felt too sexually active and started thinking that guys wouldn’t like me with short hair if I was ever asked for pictures of my face. My pronouns are she/they. I don’t love she but more people like that. Hotline: 988. You are more than just a body.

I'm almost 30 and I'm finally taking my driving test for the first time tomorrow. I'm inspired to have my own freedom and be able to go anywhere I want. I have been in a terrible relationship for over 10 years and I have relied on him to take me everywhere. I can't even get to the grocery store where I live without having my own car (there is no Uber or reliable public transportation). Getting my license means freedom from him as well.

I'm struggling with an attraction to a co-worker. I'm married and he's in a serious relationship. There's intense chemistry between us and I don't know where to put it. Theres no one I can talk to about it. I'm confident he feels the same but don't want to confess to him in case I'm so wrong or in case I'm so right. I don't want to damage our friendship and would rather have him as a friend than nothing at all. But it's driving me crazy to not know how he feels. I'm torturing myself, but I often feel alone in my marriage. This attention from coworker is innocent now but makes me feel so positive. I don't know what to do.

I am caving under the pressure of being labelled as 'highly intelligent' as a small child. im failing at all i do and feel unworthy, as all people loved about me all my life was how smart i was. because i was.